WAIT! I can explain myself.
It all started on a normal March afternoon after school. The sun was out, the weather was transitioning from harsh winter winds to cool spring breezes. As a normal freshman in high school I did what any average high school student does when they get home. I went on Facebook. Nothing amazing caught my eye at first, suddenly I saw this ex bestie of mine (lets call her Sara) was online. I was obviously overcome with joy because this girl was living half way across the world for over a year at the time. I clicked on her name and typed:
Me: Heeeeeey!
Sara: Guess what!
Me: What, is this a secret... I like secrets.
Sara: It has something to do with me and where I'm living.
Me: Are you back !
Sara: Maybe..
Me: AAAAH!
Sara: I KNOW I'M SO HAPPY!
(The conversation continued like that for a while)
Now fast forward a month or so. I noticed she removed me as her sister on Facebook. I thought this was a mistake so I didn't say anything. I emailed her a couple of time throughout the Summer, these were some interesting emails too, I wrote about trying to get rid of my cramps by taking 4 Midols in the span of 10 minutes for God sake and she didn't even reply. After these series of emails I realized I was being avoided so I completely ignored her for awhile. I caved twice the first time I sent her a message simply saying "Don't message me." And she did exactly what I told her to do and deleted me off of Facebook. Beautiful.
When I was with other people I acted like what she did didn't affect me in any way. Now when I was by myself that was a whole different story. I would watch hours and hours of Grey's Anatomy and eat, doesn't matter what I'd just eat.
The second time I sent this exact message, "hey.. believe it or not i don't find sending you a message awkward in any way. It's probably cause I'm immune to feeling awkward, but I'm actually worried about you (I know I sound like a dipshit) you randomly stopped talking to everyone and you deleted your fb after 'M' sent you that shitty message, yeah I know about the message, but seriously if somethings up you know you can tell me :). I'm your person, you're my person remember ;)"
Even after that heartfelt message she didn't message me back. I'm not going to lie it hurt me at the time but I don't care much anymore. In the famous words of Doctor Seuss, “Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened.” I may not know what I did to make her ditch me but I do know that we had some amazing times together.
After venting I officially close the Chapter of Sara in the (hopefully long) story of my life.
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